When did the phrase I love you become a contract that I daily lie.
When did I get so broken that I can’t relate to another human being without being A. A jerk B. Deserving of everything that’s happened or C. Completely codependent.
Why is it that I trust over and over and over again that maybe one day you’ll actually see me and see that everything I’ve ever said doesn’t mean to hurt you it means to hurt me.
When did I decide to place the walls up and live this fake part